Chapter 31: It's So Hard Letting You Go

A few days later Pauline with Ava were walking to the school hallway. Their school day was over. "Pauline can i ask you something?" Ava asked her best friend when they walked out of the school. "Of course you can." "Have you ever been to Caribbean?" Ava asked. "Well, let me think.... NO!" Pauline answered. "Why are you asking?" she added a few seconds later. "Well, because you or better WE are going there in last of the August." Ava informed her.

"Woah, hold on! And what are we going to do there? And when you say we who we?" Pauline asked and her eyes rolled. "All of us! All the uncles, granny and Tori's family." Ava tried to give her a hint. "Wait a second! You're saying that Richie is getting married in Caribbean and we're invited?" "Oh yeah! They are getting married!" Ava answered and she couldn't hide how exited she was about it.

Pauline pulled her close for a quick hug. "That's great! They both must be very happy about it..." Pauline asked when they broke apart. "Yeah, they are. It's been a while since i saw my Dad that happy!" Ava answered and shaked her head. "If you say so." "Do you want to come over this afternoon. We'll pick up the wedding dress and suit. Tori wants more opinions rather that dad's 'everything you were is beautiful on you.'!" "You sure? I mean this is a very persnonal moment...." Pauline tried to explain but ava stopped her.

"Pauline stop thinking about this okay? Plus she asked me if you're free today." "Okay, then!" Pauline answered and smiled. Both girls start walking "So, how are things with Alex?" Pauline broke the silence. "We're great. Can you keep a secret? But don't tell anyone..." Ava said and stopped. "Sure." "While Dad was on tour he came over and we......" she started but she wasn't able to finish. "And you.....?" "You know we did it." "Oh..." she answered.

"It wasn't that bad the first time." "So, there are more than one time?" "Four maybe five..." Ava answered before she thought about it. "You did it with your will he didn't push anything?" "No, no! He was great from the first minute till the last, i pushed him on it. And i don't regret it...." "Yeah, me too either!" Pauline answered. Ava's eyes rolled. "No shit!" Pauline just shaked her head. "Just don't tell anyone, my Dad doesn't know anything. My Mum left a very nice note before she left. She said that i don't have to do anything with Jesse that i might regret." Pauline stopped. She felt a little strange when she called his name.

"My Dad doesn't know anything either, and it wouldn't be necessery to hear it..." "I agree with that!" pauline answered and smiled. "Oh here's the bus! You sure don't want to come?" Ava asked her one more time. She hated when she was alone on the route back home. "I have the car here!" "Ok, see you at 5.00! That will work for you?" Ava asked before she steped up to the bus. "Yeah, see you there!" she answered and smiled.

Once Ava was gone Pauline walked to the car. It wasn't that far away and she didn't mind walking. It was late November but it wasn't that cold. She zipped up her jacket and start walking. She turn left and walked to the back of the school. She was in the middle of the road when she saw some guys walking agressivly to a little boy.

Her heart stopped when the little boy has some weight more. She knew that feelling. She've been in this little boy's shoes. But no one was there to help her. She just couldn't turn around, her heart will not accept it. The little boy was about 10 years old. While the other guys were a few years younger than her.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" she asked when she came closer. One of them turned and said "Is he your brother?" Pauline nodded no. "So, go fuck yourself!" he turned back tot he boy. He puched him and he hit the ground. He grabed his bag and asked. "Were are your money? You said you'll give us 50 bucks today. Were the fuck are?" he grabed him from his jacket. "I don't have any!" the boy answered with low voise. "Lier! You bastard! Brian search him!" he ordered.

"Man he told you he doesn't have any!" Pauline answered from behind. The 'captain' of the team turned and said "I think i told you to leave. Why are you still here?" "I only leave when you let him leave too..." Pauline answered calmy. "We're not leaving until we have our money...." the guy answered and turned back to the little boy.

He walked closer to him and he was ready to punch him on his face. "Don't you think he's too young for you?" Pauline asked. "Oh, let us girl!" "Well, just wait a second to call the Police. I don't want to call Dad when he's on work but you make me..." pauline answered and pulled her phone from the pocket. "Y-Your Dad is a cub?" "Yeah. Listen you have two choises. One you and team leave right now and don't bother him again. Or two i call my Dad and he's here is 2 minutes. You choose man..." she explained.

The guy remained silent for a few seconds. He looked to Pauline and then to the boy. he let him go. "Come on boys let's get out of here!" he said and Pauline watched them walking away. Once the were gone she walked to the boy. "Hey, are you okay?" she asked him. "Yeah, i'm fine. Thank you for what you've done for me!" "You're welcome. What's your name?" Pauline asked.

"Richard John. What's yours?" he asked and collect the things that were out of his bag. Pauline stopped for a second and smiled. "I'm Pauline. You got nice names....." "Thank you. I can say is a little faited to have these two names." Pauline raised her eyes brow.

"Why?" "My first name is the name of my favourite guitar player...." Richard answered. "Oh that's great. I think i know your favourite guitar player. And by the way he's mine too..." she whispered to his ear. He laughed and rolled his eyes. "Really? You're a fan too?" he said exited. "Yeah, i'm a fan too... are you hungry? I saw that these guys took all your food." "Yeah, i'm a little. But you don't have to buy anything. I'm already thankfull to you for saving from these guys." "Oh come.... stop it. You come with me in the car now...." Pauline said she didn't wait for an answer. She grabed his hand and lead the way to the car.

Once they were on the way to a cafe Richard was looking around to Pauline's car. When a phote of Jesse caught his attettion. His eyes rolled when he remember that articl he've read a few months ago, when Jesse had the accident. He had saw the picture of her and Jon walking out of the hospital together. Now, he was sure. She was her for sure.

Pauline saw him from the corner of her eye. "You like the picture?" she asked him. He shaked his head. "Mmm yeah." "Me too." she answered and smiled to him. A few minutes passed into silence and Richard broke it. "Is he okay? I mean after the accident. I've read that his was in coma for a few weeks. But i didn't bilieve them. You know how press is." he finaly asked. "Yeah, is fine. It was really hard for him and for all of us at the beginning. But now is better that before." "I'm happy hearing that. You're a nice couple. I've seen some pics of you two together." "Really?" "Yeah. You guys are perfect together. I hope i'll be as lucky as Jesse. Find a girl like you...."

"Oh Richard stop it! You make me blush! I'm sure you'll be luckier that Jesse. I'm sure you don't the famous Bongiovi temper, because he does. But don't tell him that." they both laughed. "Okay, but i don't think i'll see him. I've watched some Notre Dame games but i didn't see him." he answered. "Maybe in the next game you'll be luckier. Just tell him you're my friend..." he smiled.

They arrived at the pizzeria a few minutes later. They sut on a table and talked about everything. Pauline was amazed by the stories he told her. People were so cruel to him. They were judging only from his weight and not from his personality. He was not really talking like a 10 year old. he has a statemant for everything, even in politics.When Pauline told him she's from Greece he didn't stopped talking about that country. He traveled there last year and all the memories were fresh.

While they talking Pauline's phone rung. "Hey, Ava what's up?" she asked. "Where are you?" Ava askedfrom the other line. Pauline looked the hour on the phone. She was late 30 minutes. "Oh shit! I'm sorry about that something happend on the road. I'm on my way...." she said and hung up.

"Everything okay?" Richard asked. "I'm sorry buddy but i have to go somewhere. But don't worry i'll drive you home!" she answered to her new friend and paied the bill. They left the pizzeria and walked to the car. With Richard's help they pulled to his drive way. She let him in the front door and drove away.

About half hour later she was in the Sambora house. Ava opened the door and Pauline walked in. "Ava, i'm sorry. You have every right to yell at me. But something really bad happend when you left!" she said with one breath. "Chill out girl, it's okay. What happend?" Ava asked and closed the door behind her. "When nyou left i went to the parking lot and before i got there i saw a group of guys bothering a little boy about his weight. To get to the point i made these guys go and went witht he boy in a pizzeria and talked. Where is Richie?" Pauline asked. Ava has already sut on the couch."Oh my poor boy! The last time i saw him was in the office." "Thanks, i'll be right back!" she said and walked away. "I will never understand her. Never!" Ava told to herself and opened the TV.

Pauline knocked the door of Richie's office and walked in when she hear his voise. Richie was sitting on his desk. His eyes were reading something on the laptop screen. He looked up and said "Oh hello Angel. How are you?" "I'm good. Can i sit?" "Sure. Is there anything i can do for you?" he asked and closed the screen of his laptop. "Yeah, i think you can do somehting for a friend." Pauline answered to him while she sut. "Is the first and the last time i'll ask you this but is for a good reason." she added. "Go ahead." "Can you give an autograph?" Pauline asked a little shy.

"An autograph? Sure. Is it for you?" Richie said and searched for a peace of paper and a pen. "No, is not for me. I have the guitar remember?" "Oh yeah right. Who to?" "Richard John..." Richie smiled and writted down to the paper he found. "What's next?" "I-I don't know. You've writte tons of autographs. Just writte what you usually writte... i don't think he'll  not matter." Pauline answered and popped her head to see what Richie was writting.

"There you go Angel!" he told her and gave it to her. "That's geart! Thanks King!" Pauline answered and when took the paper in her hands. She stood up. "Congrats about the wedding too!" she told him and smiled. "Thank you!" "You better watch yourself from now on, you know what i mean!" she said and winked at him. Richie laughed. "Thanks for remembering to me Angel!" Pauline nodded and left Richie office.

While she was walking in the hallway she put the autograph in her bag. Smiling she found Ava watching TV. "Sorry about that." Pauline said and sut next to her in the couch. "It's okay. Don't sit. We have lots of work to do. Dad needs something to wear in the wedding. And because we all know that he's able to show up in jeans we must find him a suit." Ava explained and stood up. "Yeah, i agree with that! Where's Tori?" Pauline answered and stood up too. "She's in the kitchen! Come on." Ava said and walked to the kitchen and Pauline followed her.

Entering the kitchen Ava and Pauline found Tori sitting on the chair drinking coffee. "Hey, Tori how are you?" Pauline asked first. Tori looked up and her and smiled. "Great. You?" "I survive. Gongratunations for the wedding!" When Tori heard the word 'wedding' it was a little hard for her to hide that smile. "Thank you. But we have work to do! Let's get started! Ava could you please bring the magazines?" "Yeah, where are these?" Ava asked. "In the living room on the big table." Tori said and start making some room for the magazines. "I'll go help her!" Pauline offered and left behind Ava.

Ava was already in front of the table and she was starring at it. "What are you doing?" Pauline asked from behind. Ava walked a step to the right and Pauline was able to see. Six packs of magazines where these. Each pack should have about five magazines. "Oh Jesus!" Pauline said and rolled her eyes. "We have a lot work to do..." Ava said and took one pack. "We sure do.." Pauline answered as she took an another pack.

The three girls were having a good time looking for a wedding suit for Richie at first. They all knew that this will take some time and still it was more easier that looking for a wedding dress for Tori. Richie joined them a few minutes later, it was his suita after all. he found every suit better than the other. And that made their work even harder. But the girls didn't give up. "Look Richie you must choose one!" Tori said. They were there more than 4 hours and Richie liked them all. "Yeah, i know but i liked them all!" Richie answered and took a sip of his water.

"Come on Dad, we've show you more than 100 suits and you keep saying 'is good' and 'is great'. Just find one..." "Or you can also made one by yourself...." Pauline added. She took a magazine on her hands. She didn't notise that they were looking at her. "What?" she asked. "How can we be so stupid? Yeah, of course! Byt the and of the week i think that it will be ready! Angel you're the best!" Richie repleid and Pauline blushed.

The bell rung. "I'll get it!" Tori said and went to answer the door. Tori opened the door and saw two policemen and two other men. "How can i help you?" she asked politely. "We're looking for Mr Sambora." the one policeman said. Tori was standing there, she had lost her words. Why Police is looking for Richie?

"Hung on a second. Come in." Tori said and let the policemen and the other two men walk in. She almost run to the kitchen and said with tirified voise. "Richie why Police is here looking for you?" Richie's eyes rolled as long as Pauline's and Ava's. "What? Police is here?" he said and stood up. He left the kicthen, the girls followed him.

The policemen were standing there waiting with the other two men. "Hello, police officers how can i help you?" Richie said, he was trying to sound normal and not afraid, because he has no idea what was going to happend. "Mr Richard Sambora?" "Yeah..." Richie answered cowardice. The officer walked beside him and put his arms to his back and handcuffed him. "You're under arrest of taking without her mother's permission Miss Ava Sambora. You have the right to remaint silent. Anything you can say will be used against you in the court Mr Sambora." the officer said with a voise strong enough to break a diamond.

All the room have lost her words. Richie couldn't say or do anything. But that wasn't the same with Ava. Her eyes filled with tears. She walked to where her father was. "No, you can't take him!" she was saying while she was crying. She was trying to seperate them. Richie looked down to her daughter. He hated when she was crying. "Ava it's okay. I want you to calm down. Nothing bad is going to happen okay?" Ava's arms hugged him so tight, she almost caught his breath. "I'm not leaving you Daddy! I'll come with you...." she said, she never stop crying.

The officer who was a few steps away he wa starting to upset. He tried to pull away ava from Richie. Richie was between the two officers and walked out of the house. Ava was behind them. The door in the police car was opened and Richie got in. Ava was trying very hard to get closer to her father but the officers don't let her. The car's engine was on and the car drove away with Richie in it.

"DAAADYYY......." Ava yelled while she was fighting with the officers. But it was too late Richie was already in the car. "You must come with me Miss Sambora. You can't see either your mother and father until the court. Get in the car." a man said looking to Ava. Ava wasn't in the mood of orders from anyone. She lost herself in Pauline's arms.

Ava was hugging her close and tight. "Hey, Ava don't cry. He'll be out tommorow. Don't make this any harder." Pauline answered while her heart was breaking watching Ava like that. "Miss Sambora get in the car please!" the man said from behind. He was sitting next tot he open door of the car. Ava broke the hig and looked Pauline in the eyes. "I will not let anything bad happend to him Ava. Don't worry. No go. I'll come and visit you as soon as i can." Pauline answered. Ava nodded and walked in the car.

The car was gone and now it was only Pauline and Tori behind. "I'll call Jesse." pauline said and pulled her phone from her jean pockets. The phone rungs two twice and Jesse answered "Hey, Paul." "Richie's been under arrest and Ava will leave somehwere else until the court!" she dropped her bomb.

Chapter 30: I Don't Want To Have A Talk About It

Pauline walked out of the court after she had finished her trainning a few weeks later. She had a very tough day on school day and she was tiried as hell. All that she wanted was to have a long bath and a good sleep. As she was walking to the parking lot he phone rung. Jesse's ID came tot he front screen.

"Hey, gorgeous, how are you?" she asked him. "Hey, babe. I'm good. Where are you?" "I'm heading home. The day sucked and i can't feel nothing down from my waist. My coach just can't understand that i can't run fast for the next four to five days!" "Oh, got it! Your bad days." "Yeah. Do you want something?" she asked him as she sut in the front seat of the car.

"Well, i do. Can you come over now and take Louis with you?" "Why? What did he do this time?" Pauline asked. She wasn't very pleased the last time Louis wasn't a good boy. He loves taking their shoes and let in some place to the house. "Louis was the best boy. The problem is Romeo and Jake. They were fighting of who will go out with Louis and Mum got pissed. They will not have him for a week at least. Can you take care of him?" Jesse explained.

"Yeah, of course. Oh my poor little monsters, they were so exited about him!" Pauline said feeling a little sorry for them. "Yes, they were. Well, i'll leave you now to drive. See you in a few. Love ya!" "Love ya too!" she answered to him and hung up.

A few minutes later Pauline arrived at the Bongiovi house. She rung the bell and now she's waiting. From behind of the door she could hear footspets and Louis barging. She smiled. The door opened by Jesse but as soon as the door was opened Louis run away. "Oh shit! Louis come over here......" Jesse yelled.

Louis don't even turned to see him, he just continue running. "LOUIS....." Pauline yelled and suddenly Louis froze. He turn his little body. "Come over here buddy!" she told him with a lower voise now. Louis run to Pauline's side. "How the hell are you doing this? he doesn't listen to me!" Jesse said and put his arms around her. She kissed him. "I have me way...." "Well, you should teach me how are you doing this!" "Maybe someday i will..." she answered winked at him.

"Louis come in boy!" Jesse said and Louis was more than willing to follow them in the house. All the three of them walked in the house. They walked in the living room and found Jon sitting on the couch smocking a cigarette. Jon as he heard footsteps he looked behind to his shoulders. "Hey, Angel where have you been? I didn't see you for a while? How is your life? With school everything okay? With volley? Do you still kick their ass?" Jon asked.

"I'm fine, thanks for asking!" Pauline answered to him and smiled. "That's great. If Jess is not a good boy you can beat him i give you the free pass....." Jon said and looked once to his son and once to Pauline. "Thank you Dad! I love you too...." Jesse answered. "I know. I know. Angel do you want to have dinner with us?" he asked when he finished his cigarette.

"I apreciate the offer but they are waiting me at home! Maybe someday...." she answered back to him. Jon gave her that famous and gorgeous smile. "What did i say?" she asked. A second passed and that's when she realized that is a Bon Jovi song. "Hey, is not my fault that you have a song from any ocassion...." she added. "Well, yeah maybe you're right! I'll go take Louis things!" Jon said and got up from the couch.

"Finally he left..." Jesse said and sighed of relief. But Pauline didn't have much time until his lips met hers. "Why? He's so nice..." "He is but he is still my Dad and i don't him around when i'm with you..." he answered and pulled her closer, he kissed her again.

They were both sitting on the couch. "It's been a while since we were here A-L-O-N-E!" he said looking at her. "Yeah! 10 days, 4 hours and 38 minutes if my memory don't fool me!" Pauline answered to him watching the hour on her phone. "You even count the minutes...?" he asked back suprised, he've never heard that before. "I count every minute i'm with you but i count every second that we are apart..." she told him and kissed him.

"You know i was thinking about that maybe is a good idea to tell Dad what you saw that night." he asked. "No, i don't think that is a good idea." she answered and pulled back. "Why not? He can help us and uncle Richie will have then full castody of Ava and Heather will not bother them again." he explained. "And why we should do that? That supposed to be a secret and i told you because i trust you. No one else knows exept you. And if we tell you Dad i have to say it one more time and i just want to forget what happend that night!" she said and start feeling a little nervous about it.

Jesse stood up. "But if you say it we can help them." "I don't think they any help. It's been more than 20 days and they didn't hear anything of her." Pauline answered him from the couch. "She is preparing her next move, Paul." "She's not doing nothing. If she wanted she will have had it sooner. So, she finaly got that Ava doesn't care about her." Jesse sighed. She knew she has a point but he knew Heather a little more.

"Paul, just listen to me. I know this is hard for you but he is the only one that can help us right now." Jesse tried one more time and walked to where she was sitting on the couch. "Jesus Jesse! I told you i'm not going to tell Jon or Richie or even to the God himself! I will not talk about this again. And if i only knew how you will react i will keep it to myself!" she blew out. She don't help herself anymore.

Jesse saw her walking to the other side of the room. "Pauline we have no choise! You must tell him NOW! Before is too late! YOU must tell now before they got hurt!" Jesse didn't give up. "Jesse i told you god damn it i will not tell anyone! So stop telling me what to do with that!" Pauline yelled. She was getting more and more pissed when Jesse was trying again.

Jon walked in the living room with Louis's staff. He found them on the other side of that he left them. While he was coming he heard Pauline yelling and he heard her one more time. "I shouldn't have tell you that, Jess..." she yelled at him again. Even he was facing her back, Pauline could feel him close to her. Suddenly, she turned and walked away.

"Oh you run away again? That's what you always do! You run away from the truth! But when the bad will come and we can't do anything about it don't say that i didn't warn you!!" he slapped at her and crossed his arms. Pauline turned for a single moment and gave him the stink eye.

She was a few steps away from Jon. She stopped in front of him. He has that suprised look on his face. "Thank you Jon, good night! See you around!" she told him and took Louis's staff from his hands. Pauline looked down to Louis and told him "Come on Louis, it's time to go...." The little puppy followed her to the main door. Both Jesse and Jon saw them walking away.

"Fuck!" Jesse said and walked out of the living room, Jon was behind him. "Jesse what was that about?" he asked his son. Jesse had already walked up some stairs. "Nothing Dad! Everything is fine!" "Jesse don't lie to me. And nothing is fine! Why the Hell you talked to her like that?" Jon asked from the bottom of the stairs. Jesse stopped and turned to face him. "Because she's so stuborn!" "About what?" "Dad, just leave it! I don't want to have a talk about it!" Jesse said and walked up the stairs, leaving Jon with unanswered questions.

Pauline closed the door behind her. As the door was closed she let the tears go. With quick steps she arrived at her car. She helped Louis go in the front seat, next to her. Walking to the driver seat and got in the car. Once she sut, she looked next to her. Louis was watching every move she was making. He was lying on the seat but he got up and with one jump, he was in Pauline's legs.

She smiled. Louis moved to her belly and start moving his head up and down to her belly, it was like he was hugging her. "Thank you, buddy! I'm alright!" she told him and tipped up the tears. "Let's go back to the house before Mum does wild!" she looked down to him. "You can stay there if you want, but you musn'y move, ok?" she asked him and put the machine forward.

Pauline has less that 15 minutes to change her emotions. When she will arrive at her house no one must suspect anything about her argue with Jesse. But especially the reason. She's still very pissed at him. She told him more than once that she was not going to tell Jon. Why he can accept that? She had regrete telling him what happend that night. But she didn't know if she would be alright now if she had keep it to herself all these days.

She couldn't forget his last words. She run away because he didn't listen to her. He wanted say what he wanted and didn't care what Pauline was saying. Maybe she should have staied and don't run away with the first obstacle that is coming up. But she knew that if she had staied they will fight even more.

Pauline pulled the car to her house drive way. "We're here buddy! Time to meet my family..." she told to him. She opened the door and let the little puppy got out of the car. He was already wearing his strap, so he couldn't run. Taking the strap to her hands Pauline took the things of the car and walked to the main door.

She opened the door. "We're here!" she said. They have no idea that Louis was coming with her. She let the things down to the floor. She knelt to Louis height and put away the strap of his neck. Zeta was the first that walked out of the kitchen and saw Louis. "Oh my God! What the hell is that?" Zeta asked and looked to Pauline who was coming to her side. "Well, that's Louis and he'll stay with us for the next weeks!" "Oh, so that's Louis. Hey, Louis nice to meet you...." Zeta said and knelt down to meet him.

Louis turn his back and walked to the other side. He wasn't good with unfamiliar faces. "Hey, that's not fair!" Zeta said and stood up. "Don't worry he'll get used to you! Where is Mum and Dad?" Pauline asked her. "In the kitchen. Zeta answered without looking at her, her look was locked in Louis.

Pauline walked in the kitchen "Hey, guys!" "Pauline where have you been?" her mother asked. "I went to Jesse's and brought Louis home..." "Louis who?" her mother asked suprised. She have never heard before pauline talking about a Louis. "Well, Louis is a puppy and he'll stay with us for the next weeks!" pauline tolod her mother. She didn't gave her more details because she might suspect that while they were gone she wasn't at the house at all.

"A puppy? You brought here a puppy? Just don't tell me you found him on the road!" "Of course not! Jesse bought this for me..." she answered. "He did what? he bought you a pet?" katerina asked very suprised. "Yeah, i told him what happend that day and he was more than willing to buy me a pet and i couldn't say no to that! Do you want to see him before Zeta kills him? He turned away when she knelt down to meet him!" Pauline explained.

Katerina laughed. "That's very nice of him!" she said and looked to her daughter. Pauline was trying to act like nothing had happend between her and him. "Come on! let's go to see him..." she told her mother. She didn't want to think about what happend earlier in his house. Because the more she thinks about it the more pissed she's becoming.

Chapter 29: It Could Eat You Up If You Try To Keep It All Inside

Jesse opened the door of his house and turned the lights on. Pauline walked in with the little puppy in her arms. "Welcome home buddy..." she said and let him run on the wodden floor. She watched him running fast. She smiled and turned to her other friend. She hugged him from behind. "Thank you!" "You're welcome! I knew you're gonna love it! But we still have to find a name for him..." Jesse said and looked down to their new friend. "And a place to sleep too. Will he always live here?I can take him home for a few days." Pauline answered. "That will be great. But he must learn us first. We have a work to do." Jesse said and clapped his hands. "Can we do that tommorow? I'm a little tiried!" Pauline said and looked at him. "Yeah, just give some minutes to take care of him..." Jesse answered and went to find the puppy.

Pauline walked up the big stairs and went to Jesse's room. She put away the clothes and changed in shorts and a t-shirt. After taking care of her needs on the bathroom, she lyied on the bed. It was noce seeing this bed having two pillows instead of one. She wanted to live with him. She knew that this was sounding crazy, but that was how she was feeling. She've never felt this safty when she's with him.

When she got herself comfortable to his bed she took his pillow. She hugged it and smell it. It was smelling like him. That's how she fall asleep and how Jesse found her when he walked in the room. A smile filled his lips when he saw her hugging his pillow. He tried to walk without making a sound, he didn't want to wake her up. At least that was what he thought. "Hey, could you please come here? It's a little lonely!" she said with low voise from the bed.

Jesse turned and saw her half awake. "I thought you were sleeping. I'm sorry if i wake you up." Jesse said and lyied on the bed beside her. Once Jesse got himself comfortable Pauline rest her head on his chest. "It's okay. I couldn't sleep anyway, i got used to you." she said. Jesse was playing with her hair. He loved how soft they are. "Yeah, me too. Tommorow is our last day together. I don't want let you go. I want you to be here everyday. I want to wake up every day smelling your purfume." "I know. I want that too. You're the best pillow i've ever had." Pauline answered as she run her fingers from  his chest to his belly bottom, over and over again.

"We can do that in a few years. I don't think you Dad will let you move in with me, in the same house!" "No, he won't, at least for now. He like you." "I like him too, he's a good father." "He's good." she said and yawned. Her right arm hugged Jesse's body. He never stop playing with her hair. A few minutes passed and he notised that her breathing had changed. She was sleeping for the last night in his arms.

Several hours later Jesse woke up alone in a cold bed. He opened his eyes and Pauline wasn't there. He checked the hour on his phone, it was passed noon. "Oh shit!" he cursed and put the covers back. He dressed quickly and left his room.

Walking down tot he kitchen the air was filled with coffee and pancakes smell. He follow the smell and arrived in the kitchen. There he found Pauline wearing an apron in front of the stove. A spatula in her hands. She was making pancakes. The alarm of the coffee maker broke the silence. Pauline run to the other side of the kitchen. She was looking with a weird look the coffee maker. "Oh shit! Damn my English!" she yelled and Jesse tried to not laugh. He's enjoying watching her in the kitchen.

Somehow Pauline managed to pull out the ball with the coffee. "Thank God!" she said. She let the coffee on the table she had made before. She stopped for a moment and looked at it. It was simply beautiful. Two plates were seattled, along with forks and knives. In the middle of it was a ball with some red roses on it. Pauline looked down to her feet. "What do you think Louis? Would he like it?" he asked the puppy.

Louis was looking her and he tryied to answer with a bark but he is too young. Pauline smilled and knelt down. "I think that too, Louis!" she said and caressed his small head. The smell of burning filled her nose and in just seconds she run tot he stove. "Oh fuck!" she cursed as she tried to save what was left of the pancake. "Great! I'm screwed it! Dot is gonna cut my throat and give it to Louis for food!" Pauline said as she opened the trash bin and put the burned pancake.

On the other side of the kitchen Jesse couldn't control himself even more and start laughing. Pauline as she heard Jesse's laughter she turned around. "How long have you been there?" she asked him when he came closer. "Since the coffee was ready. And you really believe that my Mum will cut your throat?" "Well, if she sees how is her kitchen, she propably will." Pauline answered pointing the kitchen. "Nah, she's not that bad, only with Dad!" "Oh, great! Do you want to have breakfast? Everything is ready!" she said and left the apron on the counter. "Yeah, that smells great! Where did you found all these?" Jesse asked as he made his way tot he table.

"To the supermarket." Pauline asked and sut on the chair. "You took the car?" "No, we went on foot. It wasn't that far." pauline informed him. "We?" "Me and Louis..." "Louis? You found a name already..." "Yeah, are you alright with that? We can still changed it because he doesn't respond yet..." "No, it's beautiful and i think it suits him..." Jesse said and looked tot he floor. Louis was sitting next to Pauline's legs.

"Yeah, i think that too..." "How did you came up with Louis?" he asked. Pauline blushed a little. "Well, is your third name and since you bought this for me i thought it would be nice. Plus, that no one calls you by that name..." "Oh..." Jesse said and looked down to his plate. "Jess... everything okay? We can still change the name. We can find a name that you like it better..." Pauline said. How can you name a pet with one of your boyfriend's name, you idiot? she told to herself.

"No, i love it. I've forgot that i have that name too. People use only the first two names..." Jesse told her and looked at her. "Great!" she answered and smiled. "So, how was your walk with Louis?" he asked and took a bite of his pancake. "It was good. Lot of thinking..." "Thinking of what?" he asked. Pauline put the fork down next to her plate. Her eyes got cloudly. Jesse notised it. "Babe, what is it?" "Jesse can you keep a dirty little secret?" she looked up at him with a surious look. Jesse got the message, it was surious, very surious.

"Yes." "But first i want you to promise me that you will not tell anyone. Not your Mum, Dad, Stephanie, Cody and anyone else. You're the only person that i will share this with. I can't keep it anymore. It would eat me up if i keep it inside a little more." "Pauline you are scearing me..." "You should be..." "Okay, tell me and i will not anyone, i promise." Jesse answered and locked his eyes with hers.

"Heather tried to posion Richie while we were in LA." she droped the bomb.

Jesse's eyes opened wild as she finished her setence. "She did what? But she didn't right?" "No, she didn't. She had plan to put something in his Coke that will make him not remember and than she'll pass him the papers that give her full castody pf Ava." she explained.

Jesse couldn't believe what she just told him. "Oh my God! And how do you know?" he asked back. "Our last night there i woke up and went tot he kitchen for a glass of water. And i found there Heather with a Peter guy talking about it." "And you didn't do anything?" "I did. I knew if i leave Richie alone with her, she would kill him. So, the next say i asked him to come with us for a walk." she explained.

Jesse got up from the chair. "I can not believe this. I just can't." "Is not only that, she's a drug deeler too..." "A deeler of what? Pauline can you realize what you just told me?" Jesse said and walked to her side. "Yes, i do." "We must do something! We must call the police!" Jesse said and walked to where the phone was but Pauline stopped him.

"Jesse no, that will only make things worse! After i destroied her plan i don't think she'll do anything else." "Oh, you have no idea how Heather is. She will do anything to have Ava back. She want to make Richie travelling from the one side of the country to the other just see her. She doesn't give a fuck about Ava, Richie is her target. She just exploits the endless love for her to hurt him..." "I didn't believe you and Ava since i saw it my onw eyes. You should had seen with how much anger she was talking about him. I want to go there and kill her but i didn't." she answered.

"And what are we gonna do now?" "Nothing! I just want to tell someone. I wanted to put away that weight of my shoulders." "But Pauline this is surious." "I know that it is but she will not do anything else. She can't win Ava back." "And that's why she will keep fighting for her till the end. Pauline that woman doesn't like to lose. Listen to me, i know her a bit longer and i can tell you she will not give up..." Jesse answered.

"Alright, but we stop talking about that bitch? Is too easy for me to kill her right now!" Pauline almaost begged him. It was very hard for her to talk about this. "Okay, what do you want to do today? Is our last day together..." Jesse answered with a little sad voise. "Yeah, i know...." she answered and looked down to her feet. "Oh! I almost forgot it, my Mum called me this morning and said that they catch that guy!" she said and her face lighted up. "Really? That's great!" he answered and gave her a quick hug.

"Yeah, it is. His name is Derek Morgan and there have been other reports and matched to the profil. So, this guy in behind bars for a long time!" Pauline informed him and she couldn't she was about it. "Is very good to hear it, Paul. You okay with that?" he asked a little worried. "Me? I'm just fine!" "You sure he almost rape you that night!" "Yeah, but he didn't because you came and save me.... and now that i think about it i didn't thank you for that, didn't i?" she asked herslef. She didn't let anytime for Jesse to repleid. "No, i didn't. And now that i think about it again i didn't thank you for Louis either, didn't i?" she asked herself again.

There was no time for Jesse to answer. "No, i didn't. So, that make them two thanks." she remaid silent for a second. She took his hand and start running of the kicthen. "Paul, where are we going?" he asked as he was running. "You talk too much! You should stop that!" she told him and looked back to her shoulders.

When they arrived at Jesse's bedroom Pauline's lips met Jesse's for a long kiss. When they broke apart from the kiss Jesse tookher in his amrs and walked her to the bed. he knew that she wanted that as much as he wanted. He gently placed her to the bed. "Make love to me..." she said softly. "You wish my mission..." he answered and kissed her.

Chapter 28: This Old Dog Kicked Up

Pauline was in front of the mirror fixing her hair when Jesse walked in the bathroom. He didn't made a sound and he froze at the sight. Pauline was wearing his favourite black tight Levi's jeans and a red Burberry shirt. From the right side of it there were black and white lines, mixed with a few grey ones, and they made a very nice plaid shirt. Her hear were let down and Jesse amazed of how long they were.

Pauline was putting some mascara and saw Jesse standing on the doorspet of the reflection of the mirror. "What are you looking at? Should i change?" she asked and turned to face him. He was wearing a red shirt too but his has nothing in common with hers. Jesse's shirt has lots of white, blue and black lines, others there are big and others small. She looked down to the faded blue jeans. Her breath caught in her throat but Jesse's voise brought her back to reality.

"Nope, i'm ready to spend my first night on the jail! But please don't tell my Mum." Jesse answered surious. "Why you should spend the night in jail...?" she asked and start placing the mascara on her eyelashes. "You know with you looking so gorgeous many men will die to have your number and i must defend you. So, we'll have a fight... that's very simple! You must stay close to me or someone will have a heart attack well including me!" he explained and walked beside her.

"You know, it's been a while since i had a fight for you! I'm ready for an another onw! I'm gonna kill every bitch that looks at you!" she said calmy but she looked to the mirror with a devil's look. Jesse smiled. "Are you ready?" he asked when he saw her looking to herself on the mirror. "Yes, i'm ready!" she answered and turn the lights off.

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Pauline walked out of the cinema roor holding Jesse's hand and laughing. "Man, that was so funny!" she said. "Yeah, you just gotta love the Minions!" Jesse answered checking the hour on his phone. "Do you want to eat something?" he added. "Yeah, i'm starving!" "Sure, what about McDonald's?" "Oh, yes please! It's been a while since i last visited this place and i miss it very much!" Pauline answered and smiled.

They both walked to the car. A few minites later they have already ordered their food and waiting on the line to get it. "Oh my God Pauline? What are you doing here?" a girl said as she turned back to the line. "Oh God, Gina! I'm so happy to see you!" Pauline answered and gave her a quick kiss and hug.

"W-What are you doing here?" Gina asked. "We watched a movie before and came here to have some dinner, what about you?" Pauline asked looking to that handsome young man next to her. "Oh, that's my boyfriend Tommy! Tommy this is Pauline. I met her on the volleyball competiotion!" Gina said. Tommy shaked hands with Pauline first and then with Jesse. "That's my bouyfriend Jesse!" Pauline intoduse him and watched them shaking hands.

"Mmm. So, he has the game on Notre Dame!" Gina said shaking her head. "Oh, yes! That was him!" Pauline answered and winked at her. "Oh man you play for Notre Dame?" Tommy said a little suprised next to Gina. "Yeah, but not for that long! You play any game?" Jesse asked him back? "Yeah, volleyball..." "That's great!" he answered and smiled. "Well, it was nice seeing you again Gina! Maybe we should arrange something..." Pauline said. "Of course and we will! We'll see you around... Bye!" Gina answered and both her and Tommy walked away. "Have a nice day!" Pauline answered and smiled.

With their food in their hands Pauline and Jesse found a table and shut down. "She's cute..." Jesse started. "And a very good volleyball player..." Pauline added and took a bit from her burger. "You like her?" "Yes, why?" "Because you told her to have a nice day! And as far as i know you guys use that when you don't like someone!" "Oh, no! I do like her... and we're not only using this with the bad meaning..." Pauline answered and took a sip of her Coke.

She seattled her Coke down and looked outside of the window. There was a woman walking down the street. She froze. She was looking a lot like Heather. It's been a while since she had the last thought about her. Her words playied nonstop to her ears, over and over again.

"Pauline?" Jesse asked a little cunfuised. She didn't responce, her eyes were locked with that woman. "Pauline? What are you looking at?" he asked again. She didn't answer this time too. She didn't even move her eyes. "Pauilne, babe what are you looking at?" he tried one more time and touched her hand.

Pauline shaked her head and looked at him. "Are you okay?" he asked. "No, i mean yeah! Can we get out of here?" she asked him. Jesse knew that if he would ask her right now what's wrong, she will not answer. He couldn't hide that he was a little worried but at least he was trying. "Sure! If you're done." he answered. Pauline nodded and got up.

They left McDonald's and walked to the way back to the car. Jesse was holding her hand. He felt it getting more and more sweaty. He couldn't feel that she's shaking. "Paul are you alright?" he asked and stopped in front of the car. "Yeah." "Really? Because i think you're not." "Jesse please take me home... i'll explaine to you everything there... please!" Pauline begged. Jesse sighed. "Alright, but you must stop somewhere first and i think that this will change your emotions!" Jesse answered and smiled.

"Where?" Pauline asked suprised as she got in the car. "It's a suprise! Close your eyes and don't open them until i tell you, understood?" he asked. "Yes, sir!" Pauline said and closed her eyes as he ordered her. "Great!" Jesse said and put the machine on.

Pauline didn't know where Jesse was taking her and she didn't care. The more time she was thinking about Heather, she wanted to runaway. She really suprised herself that she didn't think about her since they came from LA. She didn't want to know how thing will be if she couldn't stop Heather from her evil plan. Jesse and Ava were right, that woman is able for everything. Pauline didn't want to believe them at first. But she heard it with her own ears that night. These were words that she'll remember them for the rest of her life.

The car stopped and she came back to reality. "Okay, open your eyes now!" Jesse ordered. Pauline opened them and she raised her eybrows. She looked around and she didn't see anything special, it was a common Red Bank road. "What's here?" she asked. "Wait and see..." he answered and got out of the car. He walked to her side and opened the door for her. He held his hand out and helped her got out too.

Once they were both out of the car Jesse took her hand and lead the way. "Where are we going?" she asked. "Shh! You'll see in a few seconds!" he answered and keep walking. After one minute walking Jesse stopped. "Look, Paul about the story you told me before... i kinda feel a little bad because i used to have a pet and now i don't. But you that's never is too late to have a pet right?" he asked her. "Yeah, but what is your point?" she asked him back.

Pauline was just finished her sentence when she read 'Bark Avenue Puppies'. Her jaw became one with the ground. "Oh my God!" were the only words she was able to say right now. Her eyes rolled as she now realize what was going on. Jesse laughed a little. Her reaction was better than he could ever thought.

"Let's go inside! A little puppy is waiting for us..." he said and opened the door for her. "What do you mean a little puppy is waiting for us?" she asked him back. "Well, while you were dressing i called here and asked for a puppy." he explained and closed the door behind him.

They walked to the desk and Jesse said. "Hi, i called this afternoon and asked to see some puppies." "Oh, yes i remember you! They just brought a 3 month puppy, do you wanna see it?" the young lady asked. Jesse looked next to him to Pauline who nodded and then back tot he young lady who smiled.

"Follow me..." she said and walked away from the desk. They passed a few hallways and the young lady opened a door. As they walked inside of the big room they were amazed of how much little puppies were there. Pauline looked to all of them. They were so adorable and cute, she couldn't deny them.

The young lady stopped tot he last cage. "This little guy is new one. Is only 3 months old. He's a Labrador. Very cute and very good with people." the young lady said and opened the cage. "Come here buddy..." she knelt down to meet him.

Small soles took some steps out of the cage. Is was the cutest Labrador puppy Pauline have ever seen. It was small and has beautiful brown eyes which matched perfectly with the yellow hair. Thr young lady reached for him and took him in her amrs. "Do you wanna hold him?" she asked and looked to Pauline. "Yes." Pauline answered and opened her amrs.

The little puppy got comfortable in Pauline's arms. He was looking at her with his big brown eyes. He begun smelling her. Pauline smiled. Jesse was next to her and was looking at this momment. She was good with puppies. He turned to the young lady and said "You'll keep him!" The young lady smiled. "Very nice choise. Do you ever have any other pets?" "Yeah, i used to have some dogs but they passed a few years ago." Jesse informed her as they walked back to the main store.

"So, you have all the things a puppy needs." "Yeah, i think we have. But if something is missing i'll come tommorow." "Good. You must find a name for your little friend here. He's in the best age to learn his name." "How many years Labradors live?" Pauline asked from behind, still having her new friend in her arms. "From 10-15 years. But if they have good care they live more years." "Thank you!" Pauline answered and looked down to her friend.

"You're ready to go. But i must informed you that when he'll grow up a little more he'll be very tough. You must teach him some discipline now before is too late!" the young lady gave them one last advise. "We will. Thank you!" Jesse answered.

Both of them they got in the car with their little hairy friend.

Chapter 27: Looking At The Pages Of My Life

The hours passed by and still Pauline didn't return back to the house. At first Jesse thought that she didn't want to talk or see him, he understand this. But now it's been more than 4 hours and he has no idea where Pauline could be.

She could be in the poperty or everywhere in the town. Jesse start to worry as he was walking to every single room of the house and he couldn't find her. Not knowing where she is, that was driving him crazy. When he search all the house, and still not found any clue to where Pauline was, he put on his jacket and go out to find her.

First, he checked the studio but all the lights were off. His emotion changed in seconds as he thought that he is responsible that Pauline is missing. He keep telling himself that everything is gonna be fine and that he'll find her. But the more he was walking and not finding her the most terified he becoming.

He zipped up his jacket as it was getting colder and colder. The sky was filled with clouds and you couldn't see the light of the moon. Somke lights were on but that couldn't help Jesse a lot. He was starting to loosing his faith. He had search every inch of the poperty and he still couldn't find her.

He was trying to calm himself and start thinking if he was her where would he go, and then it hit him. "Of course the bench on the river!" he said and his eyes lighted up. That was the last place, if she is not here he must search all the town. He run from the one side of the poperty to the other. He wanted to go there as fast as he could.

He stopped and he saw a silhouette sitting on the bench. That silhouette has long hair as he can when the wind blew. It was her. With the sing of relief he walked closer to her. Walking closer he saw holding a cigarette on her left hand. Oh no Paul! I'm the only one to blame for that too.... Oh man... FUCK Jesse told to himself.

He saw her blowing out the smocke and walked next to her from the other side of the bench. He thought that she'll do something but she didn't. She was sitting there unperturbed, like he wasn't there. She just continue smocking her cigarette. She didn't turn to look at him because she knew that she couldn't.

Only a few minutes ago she stopped crying, there weren't any tears left. She was looking up to the river. The wind blew and she was only waering a t-shirt. Jesse saw that she shuddered but he didn't say anything. He unzipped his jacket and gave it to her. "Here take this!" "I'm fine. Thank you." she answered with a trembling voice without looking at him. "You here for 4 hours! You'll catch a cold." he tried again.

This time he didn't wait for her responce and he placed his jacket on her shoulders. "Better now huh?" he asked her. She nodded. Jesse singed. It was an awkward moment and he doesn't know what to do or say. He remained silent and was looking down to his feet. Next to him Pauline turned her head and looked at him.

She had been thinking about this all these hours. She must tell him. "Jesse?" she asked with low voise. Jesse flipped his head and looked her in the eyes. "I'm sorry." "You shouldn't be! I must apologize for my actions. Paul, i'm sorry!" he answered. "I know you are. It took me some to let this sink in. And i shouldn't react like that. I should have stay and let you some time to answer. I shouldn't runaway like i did the first time. I'm sorry about that!" Pauline was looking at him while she was talking. Her eyes filled with tears and she moved closer to him.

"Oh Paul..." Jesse said and opened his arms and let her crawl into his lap. She buried her head on his shoulder and cryied herself. "Oh, babe please don't cry. You know i can't think clear when you're crying...." he said and kissed her hair. "I was just so stupid and didn't tell you from the beginning and look where we are now? I made cry one more time..." he whispered. That was the worse you can do to him, make his paul cry.

Pauline tipped up her tears from her eyes and looked at him. "Is never too late Jesse...." she answered and kissed his deeply. "I love you Paul!" he said when the broke apart. "I love you too Jess!" Pauline answered and smiled at him.

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"Paul, do you want to watch that movie you told me yesterday?" Jesse asked her tommorow and put their plates on the sink. "Yeah, sure! If you still want to go..." she answered him and got from the chair. "Of course and i want to go. It's been a long time since to took my girl out..." he answered and put his arms around her. "But wait you have a trainning today don't you?" Jesse asked a few seconds later and pulled back. "I can fix that!" Pauline said with a naughty voise.

She pulled from her pocket her phone and called the team capten. "Hey, Mary how are you? Not that good i just have fever and i can't come to the trainning today, i'm sorry. Nah, i think i'll be just fine for the game on Sunday. Just let the coach know. Ok, thank you girl... see ya...." she said and hung up the phone.

Jesse was looking at her with his hands on his waist. "You're crazy..." "Yeah, crazy for you...." she answered and run to his side. Their lips met for a long passionate kiss, and left them both breathless. When they broke up from the kiss Jesse was looking deep in her light brown eyes. there were still the most beautiful eyes he've ever seen. He was starring at her a few seconds.

"Jesse could you please stop looking at me like that? Do something usefull like calling the cinema and ask what time the movie starts?" Pauline's voise brought him back to reality. "Oh, yeah, of course..." Jesse answered and shaked his head.

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"Babe, i'll go take a shower!" Jesse said and got up from the bed. "Alright. When did you say the movie starts?" Pauline asked him from the bed. "At 5.00 and it lasts about one and half hour." Jesse informed her. "Great, maybe we can go and eat something after that..." "Yeah, sure..." Jesse answered from the bathroom.

Pauline was alone on Jesse's bedroom and she didn't know what to do. She was looking around until she found on the desk his laptop. "Babe, can i use your laptop?" she yelled. "Sure! The password is your birthday!" he yelled back. Pauline smiling she got up from the bed and sut on the desk's chair. She opened the laptop and typed her birthday. 

The laptop opened and saw a photo of her as the scree saver, she smiled. She opened the Google Chrome and long in on Facebook. She answered to some messeges she had. When she was finished she clicked to the Bon Jovi Fan Fiction site. She read the chapter that she had missed, there weren't that much.

A few minutes later as she was rolling down the page, the biggest Bon Jovi page was making a quiz. She clapped her hands and said "Bring it on babe!" She visited the page and waited for the first question. 

1. How is Jon's real name? 

"You gotta be kidding me? That's too easy man!" she said and typed 'John Francis Bongiovi Jr' and send it. She had typed that name many times before and that made her the first who answered. Because she knew the rules, that means she had a point.

2. When and where Jon and Dorothea got married? "Easy one..." Pauline said annoying. She typed 29/04/1989 in Nevada, Las Vegas. She send it. But this time an another fan was faster than her. "Oh you may won that point darlin' but i'll kick your ass to the next!" Pauline answered looking with the devil's look on the computer screen.

3. What is Jon's first son full name? And when he was born? "Oh, i think someone is watchng me? How could i not know when Jesse was born? Are you fucking kidding me?" she told to herself and typed as she was saying "Jesse James Louis Bongiovi. 19/02/1995!" she send it.

Jesse opened the bathroom door and heard her calling his full name "You need something babe?" he asked. He scared her. In top speed she closed the page and looked at him. "Me, no? I'm just surfing on the net!" she told him with crossed finger. Please tell me he didn't see anything! she praied.

"You sure? Because you called my full name." Jesse answered holding the towel on his shoulders. He walked closer to her. "Paul, did i say something that bother you? You can tell me and i can fix it!" he added holding her hands. "No, no! Is just..." she paused for a second. She really wanted to tell him the truth but she never said anything before about that. "Just leave it! Go get dressed and i'll take a shower!" Pauline answered and closed the laptop screen.

She tried to got up from the chair but Jesse stopped her. "You're not going anywhere unless you tell what's wrong!" he said and looked at her in the eyes. Pauline knew that she couldn't escape from this. She singed. "Well, you know i'm a fan.... and i don't really talk about that very often. Actually i don't talk about that at all..." "You know that you can tell anything right?" "Yeah, i know that! But is not that simple Jesse!" Pauline told him and lifted her head, she was facing him.

"Oh, i think i know what are you talking about. You mean because you met the band, right?" "Is not about that too..." "And you're not yourself when they are around?" Jesse finally found what was bothering her. "Look, Pauline, i like you because of what you are and not what i was wanting you to be. I love everything about you... and even that...they are great! They put themselves into their music i can tell you that! They make you feel so damn strong!" he paused a second and laughed.

"It was at some point that i was so weak. I thought that i'm a mistake and i couldn't do anything right. I thought that i'm a nothing! I was in my room all day, i didn't want to go to school because the kids will make fool of me. And then he came into my room and took me to the studio. I was 12 years old when i first hear Everybody's Broken. I guess you know the song and if not is great you should hear it!" Jesse explained. Pauline saw that from the corner of his eyes little tears were making their appearence.

"Oh, Jess..." Pauline said and went to sit on his lap. "Why you didn't tell me that?" "That happend lots years ago... but what i'm trying to say is that you feel so strong from their music and i'm glad that you like a band like this!" "Yeah, you're right about that feeling. When you think that you can't anything and think that everybody else is better than you, smarter than you and prettier than you..." Pauline started but Jesse stopped her.

"I don't think that you have a problem like that, Paul! You're gorgeous!" Pauline gave him a little smile. That means she has a little story to share with him. She went and shut on the chair next to him. "I wasn't like that 4 years ago. If we moved 4 years ago here you propably couldn't turn when you cross the street. I was that fatty girl with big red cheeks that everybody fool around. " Pauline explained and saw the suprise in Jesse's eyes.

"I was 12 years old too when our biology teacher asked us to bring something from our pets. Everybody had a pet, well exepte me!" she added. Jesse was looking at her very serious, he wanted to know what has her point. "They all brought some hair from their cats and dogs and other things that i don't remember now... and i didn't bring anything.| she paused for a second to take a deep breath. That was the worse expierence she had from school so far. She never talked about that day. For some reason she had forgot what happend back then.

Taking a deep breath she answered. "The teacher asked me if i had a pet and i answere no. Then the most beautifulo boy in the class, that every girl was in love with me including myself, said that i might ate my pet!" she said with low voise the last setence.

Her eyes were looking down to her feet. That was the first tome she talked about it after 4 years. She was trying hard to hold the tears in her eyes but she couldn't help herself. A single tear rolled from the cornber of her eye down to her cheek. Jesse with his thumb lifted her head and tipped up the tears. "Oh babe, i'm sorry!" he said and pulled her closer. She was trying to hold the tears once again but as long as she felt Jesse closer to her she let herself free and melt in his arms.

For the next minutes Pauline was crying. She tipped up the tears from her eyes and she added. "A few months later he had a party for his birthday and he invited all the kids exepte me." "You must feel horrible!" "To be honest not at all beacuse if i was going to that party i wouldn't had heard It's My Life on the TV! And since that day i changed or better they helped me to change. Until the end of the year i lost all the weight i should and here i am..." she finished her story.

Jesse was looking at her and his face was a little pale. "Jessare you alright?" she asked worried. "Yeah, i'm fine! Is just amazing that you didn't give up and you tried to changhe! You were stronger since then! I'm proud of you!" he answered and smiled. "Thank you!" Pauline repleid and blushed a little. "And then you still didn't have a pet?" "Nope, i've never had a pet. My Mum used to say that a pet is like a child and needs your attetion everyday and i'm too young to have a pet!" Pauline answered and got up from the chair. She walked to him and kissed him with lots of passion. "I'll take a shower!" she said when they broke apart. She walked to the bathroom and closed the door behind her.

Chapter 26: She's A Little Runaway

The sun was up in the New Jersey sky. Jesse woke up when the lihht of the sun filled his room. Opening his eyes he felt a weight on his chest. He looked down and saw his little angel sleeping like a bird. At this point he realized that last night wasn't a dream, it really happend. She was really there in his arms.

With very slowly and careful moves he managed to get out of bed. He opened the door and looked at her one more time, smiling he closed the door. Walking down the big stairs he entered the kitchen. First he put some coffee on the coffeemaker. He searched for a disk, when he found it he placed on the kitchen table.

He opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of orange juise, some butter and strawberry jam, her favourite. Coffee was ready. He put it on two mugs and then on the disk. On a plate he placed some slides of bread, along with some cake. he added the butter and the strawberry jam and two little knivies.

He looked it again, it was almost perfect, but something was missing. And then it hit him! He opened the kitchen door and walked to where the rosebush was. Carefully, he cut the best rose he found. Walking back to the kitchen he placed the rose on the disk.

Taking the disk on his hands he walked up the stairs to his room. He opened the door and closed it behind him very quitly. He walked and left the disk on the nightstand next to him. Pauline was still sound sleeping. He could feel that she's in a very deep sleep from her breathing. She was so peacefull, he didn't want to wake her up.

He sut on the bed next to her and placed a kiss on her bare shoulder. She moved a little but still not waking up. He moved higher to her favourite spot. he kissed her there and waited to opened her eyes. Light brown eyes opened. She turned and faced him. "Good morning!" she said with sleepy eyes. "Good morning! You slept good?" he asked her and layied next to her.

"I haven't slept this quit since we moved here! I don't even turn around! You slept good?" she asked him. "Very good! You want breakfast? Is not what i wanted but we didn't have nothing else in the kitchen! We should go to the supermarket later." Jesse said and took the disk from the nightstand to his feet.

Pauline rolled her eyes. None have ever bring her breakfast in the bed before. "You made all these?" she asked. "Yes. I knew that you'll be hungry...." he answered and gave her the rose that he cut before. He looked up in her eyes. Even she just wake up, she was so beautiful. Pauline took the rose from Jesse's hand and smelled it. "It smells great! Just like you...." she admitted. "I've never heard that before.... i smell like roses?" Jesse asked a little suprised. "Mmm! But can we eat now.... please...?" she asked him with the puppy face.

Once they both finished eatting their breakfast Jesse asked "So, what do you want to do today?" "You said we must go to the supermarket, so let's go!" she answered him. Jesse put the disk on the nightstand as he answered "What about the afternoon? I've heard that a new movie is coming out today...." "That sounds great! Can we go and see Despicable Me 2? I saw the the first in Greece and i want to see the second too..." Pauline begged him like a 5 year old.

"Yeah, no problem! I watched with Romeo. We had a lot of fun..." Jesse informed her and smiled. "You know what?" Pauline looked up at him. "What?" "I love the brother side of yours! You're so sweet when it comes to Romeo! I remember how suprised i was when i called you one day and you told me that you were reading Romeo a fairytail. I adore your brother side!" Jesse looked down to her and grinned. "Thank you! Is my little brother... what more can i do?" "Nothing, is just so sweet...." "You just can say no when he used the puppy face and you better watch out his stink eye... is better than Dad's......" "Remember me not to pissed him off!" she answered and both laughed.

Pauline and Jesse walked to the Bongiovi's door with bag in their hands. Both walked to the kitchen and left them on the counter. "That was fun!" Pauline said when she left the bags. "Fun? Everybody was looking at us! Do you always do like that when you're going on shopping?" "No, i'm normal! I don't know when i'm with you i want to do the most fun and dangerous things, you make me believe that everything is possible!" she answered.

Jesse walked to her side and hugged her. "Everything is possible but i don't to go to the hospital and having you lying in the hospital bed!" Pauline froze a little. To her mind came the scene of him lying in the hospital bed. She didn't want to think about it never again. "Pauline are you okay?" "Yeah, i'll not try anything dangerous.... is not really good to see me in the hospital....." Jesse smiled.

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Jesse walked in the kitchen and smelled steak. "Babe, you cooked again?" Pauline turned and saw him standing on the doorstep. "Yes. You know my Mum always say that when i'll grow up what my hasband will eat? So, i must take a little practise now that we're young.... you know, to learn how you eat your food....." Pauline answered him. "So, you really want to do that, don't you?" he asked as he walked behind her. 

"Yeah, why not? We'll be together till my hurt is gone......" "Hey, why you'll die first? Maybe i'll die first..." "Well, if you die first it wouldn't take any long to die too, just a couple a minutes...." "Paul, don't be silly, we're both too young to talk about that...." "Yeah, you're right! Food is ready...." she said and pulled pout from the stove two steaks.

They both sut on the kicthen tab;e and start watting their lunch. Pauline was looking at him eatting. She couldn't wait any longer. She wanted to know. "Jesse? Can i ask you a question?" she broke the silence. "Sure, what is it?" "Why you didn't tell me who your Dad was?" she asked him and looked him in the eyes.

You waited very long babe for that question. No more lies, Jess! Tell her the truth! He told to himself and put the fork down. "When i saw you at Ava's party things between me and Jennifer weren't that good. I wanted to give her a chance but then you came into my life..... Ava told me you're a fan and i saw it from myself! By the way i love that neckless, it looks perfectly on you...." he paused and Pauline blushed  a little.

"As i was walking closer to you i knew that you'll recognize me... but you didn't! You know is really hard being the son of Jon Bon Jovi! It looked silly to you but i got girls throwing themselfes on me and pretend that they liked me just to come here and see my Dad." he paused one more time and looked at her.

He took her hands in his. "But you weren't like that. I knew you're a fan and you didn't a say a word about it. At that point i thought that i could start a reletionship from myself like Jesse not like Jon Bon Jovi's son. You were, you are and you will be so beautiful! As the days passed my Dad and Ava learnt that i didn't told you my last name. And to be honest that really suprised me too, you never asked it!" "Your last name was the last thing that i wanted to know! And now, i don't really care, is just a name!" she answered.

"I wanted to tell you but when i looked into your eyes i knew that i will made them cry and i didn't wanted. I knew that you'll get very mad at me, i would be too. I don't know, when i'm with you i forget everything! They warned me lots of times, especially my Dad! I knew he was right but i just couldn't say it!" he paused and shallowed.

"One day i was sure i'll tell you! I couldn't hide it anymore! It was the day you found it out too..... and then you know the rest of the story!" he finished now. Pauline was still looking puzzled. "You said that you knew i was a fan... so why you didn't say it?" Jesse looked at her.

"I was waiting for you to say it, but you didn't! And i thought that it was better not knowing who my Dad is!" Jesse answered. Pauline remained silent. She was feeling her temper loading. How can he be so silly?

She looed up at him and with not a very pleasent look. "You know Jesse that's all bullshit to me! You wanted to make Jennifer jelous, don't you? You never loved me at the first sight! You fall in love with me when you and Jennifer have broken up. You thought that she'll make a move to have you back..... you were using me....." she slapped at him.

Jesse froze. "How can you think that? I loved you, i love you and i always will...... is just...... Fuck! I don't know..... you were looking so gorgeous on that dress! I've never thought that i will be able to love any person in the world like i love you! Paul you must believe me......" Jesse said and moved his hands on hers but she pulled them away.

"Don't! Don't touch me...." she said and got up from the chair. "You know what? I wouldn't get so mad if you say it now.... i know is very late but you can rescue something, if you want....." she said a few seconds later. She walked to the counter and crossed her arms. She was looking at him from there, he was puzzled and she could feel a little pain in his heart, but she didn't care.

Jesse got up from the chair and walked closer to her. "Paul, i loved you from the first time i saw you.... because of you i broke up with Jennifer.... i wanted to be with you and not with her...... i love you....." he said and looked at her in the eyes.

"And why you didn't tell me? He is your damn father.....?" she asked him with angry voise. She was more than upset, she was pissed. "You knew from your own that if you let the time pass it will be harder for you, right?" she asked an unswered question. "Then, why you didn't tell me god damn it? You knew i will be pissed as hell..... why?" she asked him again and again.

All she wanted to know was that why. That why was on her mind from the frist day, till today. "Paul, i've told you.... i had already broke up with Jennifer at that party! I already told you, i wanted to know you better and i thought that you will not recognize me at first....." Jesse answered as calm as he could.

"And because i didn't, you said alright someday she will and then everything will be okay? Is that what you thought Jesse?" Pauline asked him and anger filled her voise. Jesse was standing there looking at her. he couldn't answer because that thought crossed his mind more than once.

Pauline saw him and Jesse didn't answer. The more Jesse didn't answer the angrier Pauline was becoming. A few seconds passed and Pauline didn't get an answer. "Jesse just give me a fucking answer!" she yelled at him and hit her hand on the counter with all of her power. Her eyes filled with anger.

Jesse's eyes lost their shinning when he saw her angry like this. "I knew it!" she sipmly said and walked to the door. Jesse walked beside her and grabed her arm. "Don't touch me!" she answered as Jesse turned her. She put away Jesse's hand and looked at  him with her best version of the stink eye. "Leave me alone!" Jesse's hand left Pauline's and he saw her walking away.

"Fuck!" he cursed. He knew if he run after her, she wouldn't talk to him. Maybe it wasn't that good idea to talk about that.

Pauline was walking with big and fast steps. She wanted to go away from him. She didn't want to see him or talk to him right now. She tipped up her tears with her fingers as she was walking to the hallway.

Chapter 25: Flesh To Flesh, One To One

Both Pauline and Jesse walked in the kitchen. It was early for them to go to bed so they deceaded to watch a movie.

Pauline picked a movie and got so comfy in Jesse's arms. At the during of the movie none of them said a single word. There are no words that they can explain how they are feeling right now.

Two hours later the movie finished. "Nice movie! I like movies with happy end!" Jesse said. "Yeah, me too! Can we go to bed? I can't hold my eyes open any longer!" Pauline asked and looked up to him. "Sure, babe!" he answered. "Just give me a minute to put the alarm on!" he added and desappread.

Pauline took the empty ball of pop-corn and left it on the sink. Arriving back to the living room Jesse was there waiting for her.

Taking her hand he walked her to the stairs. All the lights were out. Lighted candles were at the ends of each stair from the begging to the end. Pauline froze at this sight. She looked up at the young man next to her. He just gave her a smile. Without leaving her hand they walked up the stairs to Jesse's room.

Jesse opened the door of his bedroom and let her walk in first. Jesse's bedroom wasn't any different with the decoration. Lighted candles were on several parts of the floor. Pauline still has the shocked look on her face. She knew he was a romantic guy but she couldn't believe he was that romantic.

"Oh Jesse is so beautiful!" was the only thinh she could say. "I just wanted you to feel special and unique! I never have done this for any other girl!" he admited and put his arms around her. "Well, now i defently feel special but sleepy in the same time!" she answered and made Jesse laugh.

It didn't take them very long to change and lay on the bed. Jesse had layed on the bed first. Pauline opened the bathroom door and closed it behind her. She let her hair down from the ponytail. Jesse's eyes rolled. She was wearing a pair of tight shorts and a tank top and nothing else.

"Come on babe! Time to sleep! We have 2 more days!" he said from the bed. Pauline looked at him and gave him a sleepy and a grateful smile. She walked to the bed and layed beside him. Jesse opened his arms and let her cruel in. "I wish we could sleep like this every night!" he said softly. He kissed her and turned on the other side of the bed saying. "Good night, Paul! I love you!"

A few minutes passed and Pauline turned to Jesse's side. "Jesse? Are you sleeping?" she whispered to his ear. He opened his eyes and turned to her side. "What it is? You don't feel comfortable?" he asked. "No, is not that! I'm not sleepy anymore!" she answered.

He was defently awake now. he was trying to realize what her words meant. He was still in shock and was trying to process what she was saying and then she kissed him. "Kiss me." she whispered softly. he didn't wait to say it twice. With a little moah from the back of his throat he roll on the top of her "I am not hurting you, am i?" he asked and she shaked her head no.

her hands drawn to his shoulders, so she could pull her down even closer. "Easy, Paul! We have all night!" he whispered to her ear and took the control. Within seconds later she was panting beneath his lips, her nails were raking over the soft flesh at his sides. "I need you Jesse!" she said breathlessly. Her mind was not prosessing anything except the intense yearing she felt to be as close as possible to him.

"I know and i need you too! But let's slow down a little!" he said hoping he could follow is own advise. His cock was suddenly a heavy weight coming form the middle and straigh against the elastic waistband of his shorts. Somehow, he slid the pants down but this made it even worse. The tip of his cock touched her tight, he knew that is impossible to take things slow now.

"Can i take your tank top off?" he whispered but Pauline had already grasped the hem and pulled the garment over her head. She mewed with pleasure when he pressed his bare chest to hers. Trying to slow down what was beginning, Jesse kissed her forcefully. His lips demanding, pressing into her until she was barely moving. He truly appreciated the exquisite tortune of having her nearly naked and beneath him in his bed.

"Listen to me." he whispered. "I want this like you do, but i don't want to rush things? But it's very very hard for me to resist you looking so....." his gaze swept down to her bare torso. Lingering at her nipples until he covered one with her breast with his shaking hands. "You look so beautiful Paul, and i'm trying really hard to keep myself under control, so i don't hurt you too much." he grinned when her cheeks tinted to pink. "But can you just kind follow me?"

She nodded slowly. She was so happy that her first time will be with someone like Jesse. Someone who cared about making it special for her. "You've done this before, haven't you?" "You mean sex... or with a virgin?" Jesse blushed a little. "I know you had sex before silly! But yeah, with a virgin?" Jesse took her hand on his and brought it to his lips when he nodded, his eyes never leaving hers as he kissed the back of her hand. "Did you care about her very much?" Pauline asked, cursinng herself of being jelous at a moment like this. "Yes, i cared about her! Until, i realized that nothing is what it seems! but this has nothing to do with how i feel about you! I've never felt like this for any other girl!"

Pauline searched for his eyes and the smiled. "Did she liked it?" he shook his head and grinned, dipping his afce into his bare shoulder. "God, Paul, only you would ask that right now!" "I'm sorry but i'm trying to fegure out what to expect! I know is gona hurt..." "Honestly you are not going to like the first time." he said, regarding her with worried eyes. "But i promised you i'll be as gentle as i can!" She nodded. "Can we stop talking and go for the good stuff?" she asked eagerly, smiling when he grinned. "Yes, we can!" he whispered "Just follow my lead, ok?"

She nodded and he began kissing her again. He started by pressing chaste kisses to her lips, stroking her cheek with his thumb, whispering sweet words of how beautiful she was, how special to him. Soon she was relaxed and blinking up at him almost as if she was in a trance.

He gently turned her face toward his, slowly and thoroughly exploring her mouth, her lips still talking to her softly. His hand began to glide down her torso, over all that soft, tan skin between her breasts, pausing for just a moment to circle a puckered nipple with his thumb before moving lower, outling the curve of her breast with the barest of touches, his fingers stronking her sides and finally coming to the rest of her hip.

"Can i take these off?" he whispered, his hand hovering over her tight shorts. She nodded and moved to help him, but he stopped her. "Babe, let me!" he whispered. "Just lay back!" Obediently, she settled back against the pillows as he knelt next to her and grapsed the elastic of both her shorts and her panties. With the utmost of care he eased them down over her hips, his eyes never leaving her body as she lifted from the bottom of the bed.

His breathing grew ragged when she was finally completely bared to him. She was more beautiful that he could ever imagine. "You are the most beautifulo girl i've ever seen Pauline. Ever....." he whispered fiercely. He was rewarded with a special smile as she reached up and drew him to her. "Kiss me again!" she whispered and he happily abliged, srteching out next to her body with an expression like he had just been given the keys to the candy store.

When he paused for a moment between kisses, she blinked up at him shyly and chided. "It's not fair for me to be naked and you have still your clothes on!" Within seconds he had wriggled out of his shorts and there was finally nothing between them. "What's next?" she asked. "Just relax!" he istructed and began kissing her again, aware that his cock was strainning toward her. Jesse knew he wouldn't be able to hold out much longer, but he wanted her to get at least some plesure out of this first time.

With trembling fingers, he skated down to her torso to her thighs, gently caressing them but not coming near the triangle of silky curls that rested between them. Instead, he teased her with soft touches until her tighs feel open naturally.

He dipped his head to one of her nipples, toying with in this his thumb and then the tip of his tongue before lacching on with his lips. Pauline was so focused of what he was doing to her nipple that she was barely aware that his other hand moved between her things and was now gently resting over her, the heat of his hand searing her body. When he began slowly sliding one finger over the delicate folds guarding her breath caught her throat.

"Easy babe." he whispered, placing the tiniest bit of pleasure there, his eyes never leaving hers, stroking the hair back from her forehead with his other hand. "I'm going to take care of you!" he promised. Drawing tiny concentic circles over that forehead flesh with his fingertip, Jesse stretched full lengh against her side, willing his own body to wait while he sought to give her the pleasure she deserved. He murmured sweet words of love to her ear, smiling when she turned and met his gaze.

"Need you.... inside..." she whispered, panting, her lower body rocking up against his fingers. Only then did he allow his finger to slide inside, over her cilt, teasing and toying with that most sensitive part of her with the lightest of touches, circling and storking until she squeezed her eyes shut. "Jesse... please..." she started "I'm ready!"

His cock was now straining toward her as if it had a mind of its own, but he knew she wa so close. He slowly slid his finger into the warm, wet place inside of her, so tight around his finger that he knew this was likely the only pleasure she would get from their lovemaking the first time. he gently pressed his palm against her, rubbing in time with her body's own instinctive movements. "Shhh.. jusy a little more!" he coaxed.

Seconds later, her thighs tensed and she moaned as her release rocked throught her. clutching him with her arm around his shoulders. "Are you still sure?" he asked. he wanted to hear it one more time, just to be sure.. again. She nodded quickly and before she could get too nervous that the moment was upon them, he reached for the open condom pack in the drawer of the nightstand next to him and he quickly sheathed himself. Settling himself between her thighs with his weight breaced on his elbows, his hands smoothing the hair back from the face, he kissed with all the love and the emotion and desire in his heart. He truly felt that sge possessed not only his heart but his soul as well. He never expected to have this depth of emotion at this moment, but she was everything to him.

"I love you..." he whispered hotly against her ear, squaring his hips with hers and positioning his cock "Stay with me, ok?" She nobbed in the darkness, her fingers resting lightly on his bunched shoulders. She trusted him with her heart... with her life.

He ever-so-carefully began to enter her, grimacing when he winced as his body met the fragile barrier guarding her virginity. But instead of marveling at the tight, wet heat and wanting to go deeper, he almost began to pull out, so afraid of hurting her. But she stopped him, her hands light on his back. "No Jesse..." she whispered. "It's alright! I'm ready. Please..."

Shaking his head at the fact that she was actuallu trying to soothe him at this moment, he bent to kiss her, stil poised against her as if frozen in time. But then he rocked against him, just the tiniest fraction, and with a swift curse he thrust forward, his body tensing as she stiffened against him. Deep in the recesses of his mind, he knew she was in pain and he didn't think he could bear the fact that he had hurt her. She was so tiny, so unbelievably constricting around him, that he could only imagine how it must feel to her.

"You alright?" he asked urgently, his voise cracking from his efforts to control his own body's respose, his heart breaking from the sound of her labored breathing. Tears flooded Pauline's eyes, not just from the physical invasion she had just endured, but from the emotions she heard in his voise. "I'm alright!" she nodded quickly, tears sliding from the corners of her eyes. "Just hold me for a minure... til i get used to it..." He stayed still as a stone, battling his raging desire for several seconds. When she finally seemed to calm, he aksed her "Ok?"

She nodded and he slowly began to move inside her. he refused to actuallu thrust, but instead gently rocked and pressed against her, all too aware of her tights quivering against his hips. "I can stop..." he whispered, praying to God she didn't ask him to. She couldn't vocally responce so she just shook her head, burying her face to his shoulder as his movements became slightly more forceful. It didn't take long, and even thought he didn't allow his body full reign, he still had the most satisfying, downright earth-shattering orgasm of his life. Because it was with her.

He collapsed on the top of her, his face pressed into her throat, shaken to the core, until he realized that she was gently stroking his back with her fingers when she should have been comforting her. "Paul, i'm sorry..." he whispered. "Shhh..." she hushed him with a tremulous smile. "Let me get off you and...." he started but she stopped him. "Don't." she said softly. "It's not so bad now!" "Not hurting?" he asked, his voise reflecting his surprised. "Still... a little." she admitted softly against his ear. "But i like feeling this close to you. Just a little more?"

His cock, which was rapidly softerning inside her, jerked a little in responce to her words, but he knew was too soon. Instead, he propped his elbows next to her head, blowing on her pinkened face, and pressing soft kissed to her closed eyelids. Soom he felt her thighs began to relax and he smiled, hoping he would have a lifetime of opportunities to make up for this particular evening. "Do you want to get even closer?" he asked softly. Her eyes opened and she regarded him curiously.

"Just put your legs around my waist... if you can..." he answered to her unspoken question. She immediately encicrcled his hips with her legs, locking her ankles behind him, her eyes dilating slighlty with pleasure. "Do you like it?" he whispered hopefully. She nodded and placed her hand on his cheek in a gentle caress. "Thank you!" she whispered. Suddenly choked up with emotion, Jesse turned his face into her paml and pressed a tender kiss there. "I love you Pauline Timson with all my heart and soul!" he whispered. "I love you too Jesse James Louis Bongiovi more than you will never know!" she answered and smiled.

That was the last thing she said to him. Before she fall asleep in his arms. Where she wanted to be and where she was meant to be.